Whitney Way Thore's Friend Buddy on His Cocaine Addiction: 'I Was Ready to Die an Addict'

Whitney Way Thore‘s friend Buddy Bell is in recovery after going to rehab for a cocaine addiction.

Bell went missing after using cocaine in an earlier episode of My Big Fat Fabulous Life, which pushed his family and friends, including Thore, to stage an intervention when he returned, and helped him get to rehab.

“Truth of the matter is I just started using cocaine recreationally and it got out of hand. I was almost about to fall off a cliff, I was pretty far down that slippery slope,” Bell says in this exclusive clip from Tuesday’s episode. There were a couple times where my heart felt like it was in danger of overworking. I was ready to die an addict, I just didn’t care.”

But, thankfully, he says, his caring friends and family gave him an ultimatum.

“One of the things that my mother said is, she told a story of when I was a little boy and I was crying in bed because I had the realization for the first time that my parents were going to die one day,” Bell says, crying. “And then she flipped it on me, in the intervention. She told me how she went to bed worrying the same things about me. That was a reality that could have very well happened.”

Now Bell is back from rehab, and in recovery.

“I’ve learned a lot about myself,” he says.

My Big Fat Fabulous Life airs Tuesdays at 8/7c on TLC.

Bachelor Winter Games’ Lesley Murphy Reflects on Her Double Mastectomy: 'I Feel Strong'

Lesley Murphy isn’t easily fazed by the drama of reality television, because for the former Bachelor contestant, her own reality is powerful enough.

Last April, Murphy — after learning she carries the BRCA2 gene, which would have put her at a higher risk for breast cancer — decided to undergo a double mastectomy. Twelve weeks later, she underwent reproductive surgery, documenting her entire emotional journey on social media.

“I’m still inundated with messages from people of all walks of life,” she tells PEOPLE. “I had no idea the impact it would have.”

Now, the 30-year-old travel journalist says she’s still getting used to her new body. “I was never attached to my breasts, but they were still a body part that grew on me for 29 years,” Murphy says. “Even some mornings when I wake up now, my breasts feel foreign. But I’m getting there. And I love them now.”

Murphy is also working with Embrace Scar Therapy, a scar therapy product. Murphy says she’s not trying to cover up her scars, but rather help them heal. “I love the scars. I don’t wish them away,” she says. “They make me feel strong and brave and courageous.”

After competing on Sean Lowe’s season of The Bachelor in 2013, Murphy traveled the world and declined opportunities to join the cast of Bachelor in Paradise. “I’m not so much a get drunk on the beach and make out kind of girl,” she says with a laugh. But when the chance to join Bachelor Winter Games, a competition pitting American fan favorites against international contestants of the franchise, came along, “it was like my two worlds colliding — Bachelor and travel,” Murphy says. “I went into it with a very open mind.”

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On set, Murphy connected with former Bachelorette contestant Dean Unglert, with whom she shares a sad history. “We bonded over the fact that both of our moms had breast cancer and his mom unfortunately passed away. He knew about my surgery and my recent double mastectomy. He had the sweetest things to say about it. He was like, ‘I commend you so much for doing that.’”

As far as a romantic connection, “we’re very different people, but that’s attractive in a way. He drew me in,” he says. Not to mention,“He’s hard to look away from!”

The Bachelor Winter Games premieres Tuesday at 8 p.m. ET on ABC.

Gigi Hadid Says 'I Love My Body Now' After Hashimoto's Disease Diagnosis

After she was criticized for her weight, Gigi Hadid has opened up on why she loves her body no matter what people might say about her.

The supermodel, 22, revealed that she appreciates her physical appearance even more following her diagnosis of Hashimoto’s disease, an autoimmune condition that causes thyroid damage.

“I’ve loved my body when I was just diagnosed and I loved going through it and I love my body now,” Hadid told E! News at the Anna Sui show during New York Fashion Week on Monday.

“It’s just about everyone accepting their body as it matures and knowing that it’s not always going to look the same and you can love yourself in all different sizes,” said the model, who opened up about her Hashimoto’s battle in December 2016.

“I think it’s good to be honest. I’ve talked about my experience with Hashimoto’s but a lot of people can connect with it,” the daughter of Yolanda Hadid shared about her illness.

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Hadid recently shut down Twitter trolls who were criticizing her for her weight on the catwalk.

“Those of u who called me ‘too big for the industry’ were seeing inflammation & water retention due to that,” Hadid tweeted on Feb. 11 about the symptoms of the disease.

“Over the last few years I’ve been properly medicated to help symptoms including those, as well as extreme fatigue, metabolism issues, body’s ability to retain heat, etc,” she wrote. “I was also part of a holistic medical trial that helped my thyroid levels balance out.”

WATCH: What Does Gigi and Bella’s Mom Think About Their Friendship with the Kardashians?

Hadid has been very vocal about loving the skin you are in throughout her career.

“I have lost weight and gained weight,” the model told PEOPLE exclusively during her fitting for the Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show in 2016.

“My weight fluctuates so much,” she continued. “I really didn’t mean to . Like I want boobs. I want my a– back. But it’s not my fault. My weight fluctuates and so does everybody’s and I think that if people are gonna judge, that’s the worst you can possibly do because everybody is different.”

'I miss my children': A year later, one of first immigrants deported by Trump struggles in Mexico

Last February, Guadalupe Garcia de Rayos, an Arizona mom of two U.S. citizens, became one of the first undocumented immigrants to be taken into custody following Donald Trump signing a series of executive orders that effectively unleashed his Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) mass deportation force. In a last-ditch effort, the nation watched as her supporters formed a ring around a convoy of vans that were exiting an ICE facility in Phoenix. Inside one of those vans was Garcia de Rayos. Her two children, at times weeping, were outside.

But the community demonstrations failed, and ICE deported Garcia de Rayos to a nation she had not called home for decades. Since arriving in Mexico, Garcia de Rayos opened a small tortilla shop using donations she received following the international publicity of the case. But with little income coming in due to surrounding competition, she can’t repair the modern but expensive machinery that has broken down since. Above all, she misses her children

After she was deported, Garcia de Rayos was reunited with her family members, many of whom she had not seen in years, including her mother and father, a sister and brother. Some she had never met, including her three nieces, who were born after she left Mexico for the United States 21 years earlier.

Being surrounded by their love helps her get through the pain of being separated from her husband and children.

She also tries to keep busy. Besides running the tortilla shop, she helps out at a stand selling cups of sliced fruit her sister and mother run in the center of town, across from the massive Catholic cathedral that anchors the town plaza.

But when darkness falls, she dreads returning to her bedroom alone.

“It is very difficult, even though I am pretty happy to be with my family here,” she says. “But once nighttime comes, I miss my children dearly.”

She points at a bed on the other side of the room, below a poster of Jesus, blond and blue-eyed, raising his hand as if giving a blessing.

“That is where my children sleep when they visit,” she says.

“At night she is tormented by the hard choices the family must face: Should her husband and American children come live with her in Mexico? Or should they stay in the United States, separated perhaps forever, clinging to hope that she may one day be allowed to legally return?” For now, Garcia de Rayos’s children,17-year-old Angel and 15-year-old Jackie, stay here and visit her during school breaks. But they shouldn’t have to move to be with their mom, because this is their country. This was Garcia de Rayos’s country, too, until the day a man who said he’d target so-called “bad hombres” was sworn into office and instead targeted a mom who just trying to work hard and provide for her kids.

Natalie Portman Says Reese Witherspoon Taught Her to Use Instagram: 'I Feel Like a Grandmother'

Natalie Portman has finally taken the plunge: she has an Instagram account. And now, the actress is revealing that fans have Reese Witherspoon to thank for her late embrace of social media.

The Annihilation star, 36, held out on joining the popular platform until last month. Portman’s been using Instagram to promote the Time’s Up movement — as well as her recent Saturday Night Live appearance, which rebooted her popular rapping skit — but she couldn’t have done it without Witherspoon.

“Reese has been a wonderful support system in teaching me the ways of modernity,” she joked during an interview with Entertainment Tonightalongside Annihilation costar Oscar Isaac. “There’s this thing called social media.”

Portman said she’s still getting used to the photo-sharing app.

“It’s a very new thing in my life, and I feel like a grandmother who’s learned how to use the microwave,” she explained. “Wow, it heats things up!”

Shortly after Portman started posting on New Year’s Day, Witherspoon shared a special dedication to the new member of the Instagram world.

“This is a photo of me convincing @natalieportman to join @Instagram!! 😂,” the actress captioned a photo of the pair chatting. “Welcome her to the Insta family, y’all! 🎉

RELATED VIDEO: Women of Hollywood Attend Golden Globes Together in Support of the Time’s Up Movement

It’s no surprise that the Black Swan star has fellow A-list celebrities by her side. Portman praised the female community in Hollywood for its unity while speaking at the Women’s March in Los Angeles in January.

“We refuse to be pitted against each other,” she said. “There’s not only one spot. We’re going to make room for all of us. It’s really, really powerful and really incredible and we have all of these new friends.”

Scott Disick Refuses to Discuss Sofia Richie on KUWTK: 'I Want to Respect Kourtney'

Scott Disick has been dating Sofia Richie since September — and now, the relationship is finally being addressed on camera.

On Sunday’s episode of Keeping Up with the Kardashians, Kourtney Kardashian‘s ex admitted he’s “dating” the 19-year-old, but refused to go into further detail.

Disick’s dating life 

Kris Jenner was in the midst of planning a trip to New York for fashion week when Disick, 34, suggested he join her. Bringing up the subject with daughters Kim and Khloé later, Jenner decided it would be a good idea to pay Disick a little bit of attention and “give him something to do so he doesn’t have an excuse to get himself into trouble.”

“So we’re babysitting him?” said Kim, 37.

“New York has always been such a temptation for Scott, and very, very much his dangerous playground,” admitted Jenner, 62. “So I want to plan some really fun things for Scott and I to do together. … I can’t force him to go to the things I’m going to,but at the same time, it’s going to stress me out because I don’t know what he’s going to be doing.”

But all went smoothly, and Disick remained on his best behavior — even though he was still “going out every night.”

“This is probably the first time I’ve been in New York that I’ve woken up at 7 or 8 o’clock every single day,” he said. “ clear and excited… so for me, I almost have a newfound respect for me and New York. I talk to the kids every single day. … So at least they know that I’m present and I’m talking to them.”

“I wasn’t sure how Scott was going to be doing on this trip,” said Jenner. “But I’m really happy for him. He seems happy, healthy, present, alive, and enjoying his life.”

But sooner or later, it became obvious that Disick was hiding something: His increasingly more serious relationship with Richie, 19, who also happens to be a family friend of the Kardashian-Jenners.

“I don’t think it’s any secret that’s Scott’s been dating,” said Jenner. “But he drops little hints here and there that make me think it’s might be a little more serious than I thought.”

“Whatever makes him happy — I don’t judge, I don’t care,” said Kim. “I think it’s a good thing. I just hope that he’s making good choices and having fun and that nothing is getting crazy.”

“Scott has been so good in New York,” she added. “I mean, it’s not like we can keep tabs on him forever. He’s got to live his life. Kourtney’s moved on, Scott’s eventually going to move on. If it ends up turning into something, great.”

RELATED: Sofia Richie and Scott Disick Enjoy Date Night After Kendall Jenner Shades Their Age Gap

Once they returned to Los Angeles, Jenner decided the time had come to confront him about the relationship. The conversation — and the admission that Richie is 15 years younger than him — made Disick visibly uncomfortable.

“Kris really is like my mom to me, so I don’t ever feel like she’s putting me on the spot,” he said later. “But I don’t really feel comfortable talking to her about my personal or dating life.”

Jenner, however, pressed on.

“Are you going to come over and say hi?” she asked, seemingly suggesting that Disick bring Richie around the rest of the family. “Or are we just going to stay away from it?”

“No, that’s bizarre. Are you, like, hanging out with Kourtney’s friend?” replied Disick, referencing Kourtney’s boyfriend Younes Bendjima. Jenner said no, and Disick brushed off the rest of the conversation.

“For me, to see that Kris is invested in my life means the world to me. Because she’s got so many other kids and so many other things going on, so the fact that she actually worries, loves and cares about me is probably one of the best feelings I have,” he said later. “Truthfully, as much as I’d like to be honest with her and tell her how I’m how I’m really feeling, I also do want to respect Kourtney and her feelings. Maybe down the line. but right now, my biggest thing is just being respectful of everybody.”

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Kim’s surrogate drama

Meanwhile, Kim had her own situation to deal with: The news that she and her husband Kanye West had hired a surrogate to carry their third child had been leaked to the press after someone filmed her in the waiting room of a doctor’s office. (The couple welcomed a daughter, baby Chicago West, on Jan. 15.)

After intimate details about her surrogate‘s identity were widely reported, Kim grew furious.

“I honestly am absolutely fuming that there are all these articles coming out about our surrogate,” she said. “People started to write me asking if it was true and I just said we didn’t really want to talk about it right now. I have signed up for this life and I know how to handle it, but someone like her does not, and I would never want to put her in this situation. All I hope is that these rumors just die down.”

She later called West, 40, to inform him that “every last detail” about their surrogate had been published.

“I’m just so upset — it says the nationality of the surrogate, how old she is, where she’s from,” she said. “I just think it’s so invasive and so frustrating that the identity of our surrogate and all of her personal information got leaked.”

Kim threatened to “sue the s—” out of TMZ and any other outlets reporting the information in the hopes of protecting her surrogate — and the privacy of her own baby journey with West.

“I can’t lie about the surrogacy rumors, because people will eventually find out I’m having a baby and then I’ll look like a liar,” she said. “But I’m not really ready to confirm them, so I’m just in a tough situation.”

After expertly side-stepping the question while doing press at a fashion week event — “I definitely seen a lot of things, but we’ve never confirmed anything, so I think when we’re ready to talk about it, we will, and that’s that,” she said — she explained that she would be open to discussing the news later on.

“It’s not like we’re trying to hide anything,” she said. “It’s just that we’ll share it on our own time, when we’re ready to share it.”

Keeping Up with the Kardashians airs Sundays (9 p.m. ET) on E!

Spirited Skater Adam Rippon Counts Reese Witherspoon Among His Olympic Fans: 'I Love to Be Different'

He’s an Olympic newbie at age 28 — and the very first openly gay U.S. athlete to qualify for the Winter Olympics — but figure skater Adam Rippon doesn’t mind standing out from the crowd.

“I’m one of the oldest figure skaters competing now in the world on the Olympic level. I think in the past that would’ve discouraged me, but it kind of really motivates me because it’s different and I love to be different,” Rippon told PEOPLE in the months leading up to the 2018 PyeongChang Olympics, where the takes the ice Sunday night in the states (Monday morning in Korea) as part of the figure skating team medal event.

“I love to have my own story, my own path and forge ahead because my career isn’t going to be like anyone else’s,” he added.

After Rippon was named to the 2018 U.S. Olympic team in December, the athlete subtly noted him place in LGBT history — posting two Instagram photos of himself along with several emojis, including a gay symbol.

The Scranton, Pennsylvania, native also recently talked about what it’s like to be a gay athlete in sports, joking both in an interview and on Twitter that “it’s exactly like being a straight athlete. Lots of hard work but usually done with better eye brows.”


More seriously, however, Rippon made headlines for publicly clashing with Vice President Mike Pence over the politician’s record on LGBT right.

According to a report published by USA Today on Wednesday, a member of Pence’s staff reached out to the U.S. Olympic Committee to set up a conversation between the 58-year-old politician and the 28-year-old athlete back in January.

The alleged request came the same day USA Today published an interview with Rippon in which he said he wanted to skip the standard meet-and-greet event between Team USA athletes and the American delegation, which is being led by Pence for this year’s opening ceremony.

“You mean Mike Pence, the same Mike Pence that funded gay conversion therapy?” Rippon, who publicly came out as gay in 2015, said in the Jan. 17 piece. “I’m not buying it.” (A rep for Pence told PEOPLE at the time that the vice president does not and has never supported conversion therapy.)

Last month, Rippon told PEOPLE he stands by his USA Today comments.

“I just don’t think that’s right,” he says, “and I think there are so many people who also don’t think that’s right and I think right now more than ever I have this window of time to say what I feel and hopefully make a change.”

“My mom has always taught me to stand up for people who don’t have a voice,” he added.

 On Wednesday, Pence tweeted directly to Rippon, stating “I want you to know we are FOR YOU. Don’t let fake news distract you. I am proud of you and ALL OF OUR GREAT athletes and my only hope for you and all of #TeamUSA is to bring home the gold. Go get ‘em!”

In his original conversation with USA Today, Rippon said he would be open to meeting with Pence after the Olympic games.

RELATED VIDEO: Ashley Wagner Thinks Adam Rippon in the Olympics Will Change How People ‘Interact with the LGBT Community’

Pence controversy aside, Rippon does have one celebrity staunchly in his corner: Oscar-winning actress Reese Witherspoon.

“Reason #1 to Watch #WinterOlympics2018 : ADAM RIPPON” she tweeted Wednesday, which prompted a characteristically fun response from the skater.



Although Rippon knows how to have fun, hard work — and overcoming adversity — is also something Rippon knows a lot about.

Just as his career was rising — thanks to his winning the world junior championships in 2008 and 2009, and serving as an Olympic alternate in 2010 — he missed being included on the 2014 Winter Olympic team. The setback was difficult for Rippon, but it also provided the champion figure skater with a renewed sense of fervor.

“I didn’t know if I wanted to compete, I had lost the reason why I was continuing to practice, train and compete because it’s hard. It’s grueling,” Rippon tells PEOPLE. “But I found that that was where my passion was at — it was in the everyday grind. It was improving and I still felt that at my very core I had so much more to give.”

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Through the years, Rippon says his best friend, figure skater Ashley Wagner, helped him to realize the power that comes from embracing his own path instead of trying to follow in the steps of the legendary skaters of the past.


Missing the Olympic team gave Rippon the motivation to do things his way, and focus on having more fun with his performances. He was going to skate his best — while dancing to music he liked — without concerning himself with pleasing everyone else.

“I said, ‘I’m going to do this for myself,’ ” Rippon recalls. “As soon as I said that, I had a complete breakthrough.”

This personal revolution led to Rippon’s first national title in 2016. He placed sixth at the World Championships in Boston that year, and though he didn’t win, the audience gave him a standing ovation once his performance, set to a medley of Beatles songs, came to an end.

This freedom of dancing to the music he likes is something he is going to continue at the 2018 Winter Olympics in PyeongChang.

“When I was choosing my programs for this season, I really wanted to skate to pieces of music that really resonated with me personally. As an audience member, I like to watch what they’re doing and that’s one of the reasons I love skating because it’s a performance, and I love to perform,” Rippon says. “That’s my favorite aspect of skating.”

At the Games, Rippon’s upcoming free skate medley will feature  “O” by Coldplay and “Arrival of the Birds,” the latter of which has special meaning.

In 2017, when he was warming up just before the national championships, Rippon sprained his left ankle and fractured his fifth metatarsal bone in his left foot. The injury led to his withdrawal from the championships. For Rippon, “Arrival of the Birds” will signify both his recovery and return.

“It’s about a bird who is the leader of the flock and then has a broken wing, but then regains their strength and they find themselves flying free to victory,” Rippon explains. “This season I’m coming off of that injury, but I’m so much stronger because of that. I never lost sight of what my goals were and I think that program is my story—I’m going to fly free. I can do it.”

He adds: “That broken wing is a metaphor for my broken foot, or falling short of the goals and the dreams that I’ve had before. But I won’t let that hold me back.”

What Rippon enjoys the most about skating is the “superhuman” feeling that comes over him while he is taking off, gliding through the air, and just before hitting that perfect landing just a split second later.

“You feel so powerful. It’s such an awesome experience,” he says, adding that the feeling is only heightened during competition. “Those are the moments athletes live for — we live for those exhilarating, breathless, take your breath away you’re on the seat of your chair moments. I think that in combination with a performance with the element of risk, that’s what makes skating so special.”

Reporting by ADAM CARLSON

Man Carries His Wife's Urn During Eagles Parade: 'I Had to Make Sure She Was Here For This'

Four days after winning the Super Bowl, the Philadelphia Eagles took to the streets of the City of Brotherly Love to celebrate their victory with millions of fans on Thursday morning. Among the many parade-goers was one fan who quietly paid respects to his sweetheart by carrying her ashes through the crowd.

While he was looking for a spot near City Hall to watch Nick Foles and the team celebrate their dramatic win over the New England Patriots at Super Bowl LII, Eagles fan Dustin Javier noticed a man in a hoodie carrying an urn through the flocks of Philly devotees lining the streets. The man, who Javier learned was named Dennis, said the urn held the ashes of his late wife, Becky, who followed her hometown Eagles and would’ve loved to see them finally bring home the Lombardi Trophy.

“She was a diehard Eagles fan,” Dennis said, according to a viral Facebook post. “I had to make sure she was here for this.”

Soon after Dennis shared his wife’s story with Javier, a touching moment unfolded in front of them—Javier says a police officer walked up to Dennis and handed him a beer, then pointed to a group of about a dozen men across the street. The officer said the drink was from them.

“The officer then let him know that it was from the fans across Broad Street when they raised their beers when he looked over. Dennis was pretty happy about it,” Javier, 41, tells PEOPLE. “He was standing a little in front of me, so I didn’t see how he emoted about it, but from his voice, it sounded to me like he reacted rather jovially to their gesture.”

Witnessing the special moment was especially meaningful for Javier, he adds.

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“I lost my mother recently,” Javier says. “While she wasn’t the biggest Eagles fan, I wish she could have been here for this as well.”

The Super Bowl celebration in Philly stretched almost five miles through the city and featured a parade of Eagles players atop of double-decker buses greeting almost 2 million fans in attendance. Many of the Philly-faithful likely never thought they would see a Super Bowl victory just a few months ago when the team’s star quarterback, Carson Wentz, was ruled out the rest of the season with an ACL injury before the playoffs.

But backup quarterback Nick Foles led the team through two more victories in the regular season, and then the playoffs, before playing the game of his life against Tom Brady and the Patriots on Sunday.

While Javier— an IT support technician from Oreland, Pennsylvania—says it was fun celebrating the victory, his run-in with Dennis and the spontaneous kind gesture he witnessed was a moment he will always remember.

“It definitely was one of the best parts of my parade experience,” he says. “Sure, seeing our heroic players come by and cheering them on for finally bringing the Lombardi Trophy to Philadelphia was fun and all, but experiencing first hand that kind of camaraderie among the fans is really what that day is about and what being sports fans is really about.”